lost my job 9 days ago and i still leave the flat every morning so my flatmate doesn't ask questions. just sit in a costa til 5

moved cities for work in march and i don't think i've had a proper conversation since. like a real one. starting to really feel it

had to put my dog down on tuesday. 16 years. i keep walking into the kitchen at the time i used to feed him and forgetting why i'm stood there

showered today. that's the whole update lol

does it actually stop hurting or do you just get used to carrying it

i think i'm going to leave. been telling myself it's not that bad for like two years. typing it out makes it weirdly real

relapsed at the weekend. day one again and i feel like such an idiot

my teenager hugged me today out of nowhere. first time in maybe a year. went upstairs and had a little cry

do you ever feel like you could just not show up anywhere and it'd take people a week to notice

broke up after 6 years. still go to text him dumb little things i see during the day and remember halfway through typing it

just needed to put it somewhere that i'm tired. not the sleep kind

mum's got dementia and today she asked who i was. smiled, held her hand, did the whole thing. i'll fall apart later when she's down for the night

got a job offer today after about 8 months of no's. almost didn't bother applying. if you're in the rejection pile rn keep chucking them out there

turned 40 today. no texts. got myself a slice off the good bakery. it's fine. it's fine

being lonely while married is a specific kind of lonely no one warns you about

90 days no drink today. can't really tell anyone irl so. telling you lot i guess

everyone my age seems to have it sorted. house, partner, knows what they want. i'm 34 and still feel like i'm waiting to start

I am thinking of leaving my wife. I just don't think we are good for each other and I think our kid is the only reason we stuck it so far..

first week in ages with no panic attack. didn't want to jinx it but wanted to say it somewhere

people keep saying it gets better. ok but when

got the all clear today. two years of scans. don't know what to do with my hands now. lighter i think